Today has been aweful. I woke up in such a depressed mood. I had to spend between 11am-4pm with my mom and grandma because we were getting our hair done and running errands. I was so nasty to everybody today and now I feel aweful.
I want to go to bed and never wake up. I cut really bad. I keep going to eat something and I just can't. My mom made us dinner, I'm sitting here typing this instead. I physically feel like i'm going to be sick because of how upset I am. I know I am under alot of stress with school, but I feel like I have the biggest weight on my shoulders. I can't even describe it. I hate not knowing what is bothering me so much.
I think I'm going to overdose on laxatives. I usually take 6 at a time for anything to work.