Saturday, January 29, 2011


Today has been aweful. I woke up in such a depressed mood. I had to spend between 11am-4pm with my mom and grandma because we were getting our hair done and running errands. I was so nasty to everybody today and now I feel aweful.

I want to go to bed and never wake up. I cut really bad. I keep going to eat something and I just can't. My mom made us dinner, I'm sitting here typing this instead. I physically feel like i'm going to be sick because of how upset I am. I know I am under alot of stress with school, but I feel like I have the biggest weight on my shoulders. I can't even describe it. I hate not knowing what is bothering me so much.

I think I'm going to overdose on laxatives. I usually take 6 at a time for anything to work.


  1. I'm sorry your feeling so bad. We all have bad days tho, and at least try to eat something, even fruit so you have something in your stomach:)

  2. I'm sorry that you are feeling so depressed. Be careful with the laxatives. They do become addictive, and then you can't go without them. Try natural laxatives like prune juice, and grapes. Coffee also works for me. By the way...I found you on PT :)

  3. thanks lovelys.

    angela- unfortunately I am beyond addicted to laxatives. I have been taking them for 2 years and my body is completely effed.
    Nice to meet you. :) lol